Once, I had an idea to write a children’s picture book for kids recently removed from abusive/neglectful circumstances/families. I just wanted to get across the idea that it’s not the child’s job to understand why it happened – not when experts who have made it a life’s study can’t offer more than probabilities and likelihoods […]Read more "Audience of one/many"
It can still disconcert me, the degree to which other people’s perceptions of me can be so very much at odds with my understanding of myself. I phrase it like that because I feel that many years of therapy and acquired introspection have gotten my self-perception a lot more accurate – for certain values of […]Read more "And don’t even start about mirrors (in which, in discussing self-perception and other-perception, I range across such topics as reflective listening, intelligence, extroversion, introspection, dissociation, ambition, distraction, uglification, and derision. Except not really those last four.)"
It’s not that nothing’s been happening – I’m just finishing the first semester of my second year – it’s just that I haven’t been writing. I think the problem is partly that at the moment I’m talking to thin air, and partly that I get out of the habit, and partly…I’m not sure. I have […]Read more "Been a while (in which I bring parenthetical writing to a new and reprehensible level)"
Joel Kovel published a book called Radical Spirit which is a collection of essays about the tension he felt in being both a psychoanalyst and a Marxist. Loosely put, he says that the job of the psychoanalyst is to help the individual to change in such a way that they can function better and be […]Read more "change"
I’m finding that one of the problems of being in school again is that it makes me think more, but I don’t have the time to do anything with what I’m thinking. This morning (it’s morning for me, okay?) I’m thinking about the little I know about Leni Riefenstahl, and wanting to know more, thinking […]Read more "half-thunk thoughts"
I’ve been getting in my own way really quite drastically on the work I really must do for classes the past few weeks. I have attempted to ease myself along, break the tasks into manageable chunks (new and important skill for me, that), not beat myself up, set aside time, try to identify the things […]Read more "Resort to bribery"
I’ve been thinking about Lillian Rubin’s The Man With the Beautiful Voice (assigned) and how much I disagree not so much with her actual decisions about when she should allow physical contact (with no sexual overtones from her) to be part of her therapeutic work with someone, but how she reaches those decisions. I’ve been […]Read more "It’s Routine"